somebody told me.

Somebody had told me, 

"the harder you want to keep or protect a relationship, the more and likely you are going to ruined it."


I didn't get the meaning of it back then. 

But maybe, I do understand now.

The problem was in me.

all the time it was me.

Yes, I blame myself for all of the things that happened.

But I never regret. 

and won't ever blame myself; getting to know you.

to develop a crush on you.

to actually liked you.



Maybe it wasn't your intention to hurt me; my feelings.

It was neither your fault that you can't give what I want in return.



To be honest, 

I thank you.

I have learned something so important in my life.

That I need to love myself first. Just as you said.

Yes, you were right about this. About things.



I thank you for letting me go.

I thank you for not holding me back⁠—I mean, you have never done that in the first place.

Yes, it is hard to learn to let you go.

It is hard to get used to it—because I liked talking to you.


You are smart

passionate

somehow funny.

and you always had something to talk about. every day.



I thank you because of this

I met some people that care about me⁠—and I want to focus on them.

So many people I have hurt in the process to let you go.

I don't want to make that mistake again—Neglected and hurt them.



I "love" you, but I'm trying to let you go now.

So, thank you for every lesson you have taught me.





Until we meet again? Yes?

Always be happy, Ash :)