push me away

I'm stupid.

That's what I always tell myself; but I ended up being stupid all over again.

I don't understand why

But one thing for sure; I would throw anything to be with you.

To talk to you.

I'd do that in seconds.

I maybe know the answer but I'm still in the state of being denial.

About things.

About you.


I love you but it's getting harder.

I told you everything.

I care about you

I told you everything.

You're not my sometimes.

You are my everyday.

But maybe it's just you.

That don't care about it that much.


I told you don't push me away again.

But that's what exactly you did to me right now.

I don't know how to fix things; I tried.

Tired.

But the love I have for you is just strong that I can never hate you.



And I hate myself for feeling that way.